Elise and Avery make me laugh and fill my heart with such joy every single day. They are so freaking smart (if I do say so myself), and figure things out so quickly. They are hilarious when I set them down and they - Elise especially - try and take off running until they realize they can't, which leads to just a few very ungraceful steps before diving forward. Because, you know, they've taken a handful of steps each (and do so all the time when they aren't paying attention!), which makes them so proud of themselves. They forget that they aren't really "walkers" just yet ;)
They have super cute, chubby little legs where we once saw their super cute "elephant knees". Their size 1 shoes are all in the basement and I just bought a boatload of the next size or so because they'll need to wear them all the time now as they walk more.
They give the BEST sloppy, wet, open-mouthed, often snotty kisses, and bury their head in my chest when they give me a big hug. It makes me want to melt, right then and there.
But they were sweet as newborns, too! Oh my goodness, how sweet. I can't believe how little I remember about them until I look back at pictures. Even then, I feel like I already forget so much. Thank God, honestly, for the advent of digital cameras. Right this moment, my heart hurts a little bit. I miss those precious, tiny babies. I know it will just get worse as time goes on, too! Some people tell me that they'll just continue to grow, and that some day they might even like boys, move out of the house, have children of their own.... aack.
Some of my friends are so good about (at least claiming to) just living in each moment, thankful for the ones they've had but enjoying the current ones. Obviously I'm enjoying the current ones, but I am SO not cut out for the not dwelling on the past thing. Why can't all the moments (yes, all -- even the middle of the night stuff) last just a little bit longer?
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Oh Jen! We are so much alike! I feel the same way every time I clean out Sunnie's closet, when she starts doing something new, or has another birthday. I mean, how can she possible be three already?! I do love the sweet little girl that she is right now, but oh how I miss her being little. I even feel guilty about my sadness at times. You are such a great mom and there is nothing wrong with missing them as newborns and reminiscing. It just shows how much you love them and cherish the time you have with them!
Now you know why I want the power to visit the past or to make time stand still. No matter how much you appreciate your kids, no matter how much you swear to yourself that you've been there for every moment so no need to regret lost moments... it still happens, you still look back and wonder where all the time went. And sadly, there's not a thing we can do about it; time just keeps on ticking, with us or without us. So best not to dwell there for too long or too often, just get back to enjoying those little girls in the present. :)
I too LOVE wet, sloppy open mouth kisses from babies....so cute.
Kim, you said that so well - time is moving with or without us! I'd hate to miss out on moments now because I'm looking backwards.
It is nice to know we all feel the same way at times... it's hard!
Sara, thank you for your sweet message. I'm so excited to see you this weekend!
Hi Karen! :)
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